Good Boy vs Bad Boy

I have found the little boy in me . The one who needs permission and approval. The one who still believes that being the Good Boy will bring me rewards and success. Of course as soon as I discovered Good Boy, I also discovered Bad Boy. who only wants to do what He wants to do and to Hell with what other people want (especially what they want from me.) Of course these are classic Perlsian Archtypes Top Dog vs Under Dog. Through most of my life the Good Boy has predominated, with the Bad Boy popping out usually in a passive-aggressive manner. Hopefully I can integrate the 2 and decide what I want irrespective of what others say, what approval they give or don't give.