In April I noticed I had a lump in my right armpit. I got an appointment with my Dr. and she refered me to a surgeon He ordered a needle Biopsy which was Inconclusive. After a second Biopsy he called and told me that I have Lymphoma a cancer of the Lymphatic system. Today 5/24/10 I saw an Oncologist who told me :

1) I have Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma Grade 1 or 2 (out of 3) which is considered "indolent"

2) The next step is to decide which stage it is. Further tests including a Bone Marrow Biopsy and a PET Scan. are needed to decide a course of treatment.

For more information go to these web pages:

http://www.webmd.com/cancer/non-hodgkins-lymphoma/understanding-non-hodgkins-lymphoma-basics

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/lymphoma/AN01209

Clumsy

Clumsy

All my life I have been labeled as being "clumsy." My Mother (the family historian) told me and the family that I "fell off my father's knee" when I was 6 month's old. As if I could do anything but be clumsy at 6 mo's old. Later when I was 4, I allegedly "fell off my tricycle" (she got a lot of chuckles with that one.) Under hypnotic therapy, I "remembered" the incident as a car pulling out of a driveway quickly and me sliding off my bike to avoid the car. After my hypnotic sessions I no longer believed my mother. I know that I have my share of balance problems, especially now that I am getting older and have Peripheral Neurophy. And do not consider my self clumsy.

Good Boy vs Bad Boy

I have found the little boy in me . The one who needs permission and approval. The one who still believes that being the Good Boy will bring me rewards and success. Of course as soon as I discovered Good Boy, I also discovered Bad Boy. who only wants to do what He wants to do and to Hell with what other people want (especially what they want from me.) Of course these are classic Perlsian Archtypes Top Dog vs Under Dog. Through most of my life the Good Boy has predominated, with the Bad Boy popping out usually in a passive-aggressive manner. Hopefully I can integrate the 2 and decide what I want irrespective of what others say, what approval they give or don't give.